3/13/2013

Winding down

Last Saturday I couldn't pull myself from the bed. Once I did get up and I took a shower, tears streamed down my face. For some reason, the reality of maternity leave winding down hit me like a ton of bricks that day, and I couldn't help but cry.

I can't believe that two weeks from today I'll be returning to my first job as a PR professional. And while I love my career and most importantly, the people I work with, my new title as mom is more fulfilling than any promotion I've ever received.

Going back is going to be so hard.

But, I'm vowing to myself to enjoy the next two weeks. I get so weepy thinking of not spending 24-7 with my baby, but when my eyes start to well up, I quickly try to redirect my thoughts to the fact my time with Charlie isn't going away, it will just be a little different. Until the day actually comes, I'm loading up on fun activities to add to maternity leave memories: play dates, Gymboree, the zoo. And simply relishing just holding him in my arms for hours while he snoozes. The dishes can wait.

My friend mentioned a quote when she went back to work, and it was just on the Today Show this morning.

“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”

― Dr. Seuss

Such great advice from one of the greats. (Two greats when you count Shannon.) I'm trying my hardest to live this. So hopefully instead of seeing me sad, you'll see me grinning larger than life, simply overjoyed for the time I've had over the past 12+ weeks. It won't be easy, but then again, what about mommyhood is?



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